ok liver or day 269

i forgot last post that my blood test results came back and although my bad cholesterol is a little high and my good cholesterol is a little low, my liver enzymes are normal! they haven't been normal in at least a decade. yay!

no stairs or day 262

#32, moving to a more accessible apartment,has been accomplished! today, when i left for work, i walked right out the door and my car was right there. it took roughly 3 minutes. back on augusta, i *may* have cleared the first 3 stairs in that time. the move itself went very smoothly and i was thanked for being organized, so i guess i did an ok job of getting my shit together. the walls are (mostly) painted the colors i want them to be and now all i have to do is a thorough cleaning and unpack. the important stuff is set up, like my bedroom and living room. dizzy's still a bit shaken up, but i think he'll get over it. despite his crying and hiding yesterday, he did come sleep with me like usual and our morning routine was unchanged.

moving has lead to looking 3 other goals. #94, which was to get internet access at home. i will attempt to do this by "stealing" wifi, if anyone in my building has an open connection. if not, this will have to wait for a bit, but at least i have all the required parts. #96 was to sit on my front patio/backyard in summer. well, i didn't do that this past summer and now i don't have a patio or yard. i guess i kinda have a patio in back, but i still updated this one to "failed". it's ok. #97 was to get chairs for the patio, so that's a fail too.

in reading the list over to see what i could update, i saw #18 which was to walk 15-20 minutes 4 or 5 times a week. it dawned on me that i achieve this goal with just the walking i do to and from my car at work. yay me. and i wanted to mention that i didn't know about this year's "covers for cover" or else i woulda been on that shit. next year, they better do it again! i will be cheap trick (or blur) with my ladies!

the end of my years of living dangerously or day 243

so, this week, i think i have accomplished my first *big* goal, #32 moving to a more accessible apartment. well, i won't accomplish that for a couple weeks, but i have secured said apartment. i will have no stairs to contend with, more ample parking, and a bathtub that i think i can actually get in and out of without fear. it's smaller and yet somehow more expensive, but i don't care. knowing that i can literally just walk out my door and go is worth the extra $50 a month. since i made the decision, leaving my house everyday has been like dealing with a relationship that has ended. i see the stairs and remind myself that i only have to do it X number of times before it's over, haha. it's that feeling of realizing that you don't have to put up with something anymore and wondering how you managed to put up with it for this long.

also this week, i completed #37 (for 2009) and got my blood drawn to test my liver enzymes. results to come. also, under the banner of #13, cook more things more often, i tried my hand at pumpkin custard pie. it was delish, if i do say so myself. i'm already thinking of variations to try for thanksgiving.

a few items got updated to "tried, failed, and am OK with it". #45, was going to PLA in portland, which isn't until march 2010, but i didn't renew my ALA membership and don't plan to before the deadline and i'd have to pay twice as much without it. plus, i have better goals for saving money now. #61 was to get drunk once. granted, i didn't actually try to do this, but i realized that i also don't really care to. i'm not sure i ever did. and #89 which was to keep track of food in a journal or sparkpeople. this one i did try in earnest, but it's never really a motivator. what was nice about it though, was i was able to see that i kept on track about half the time and the other half of the time, when i went "over", it was generally not by much. i found my measurements in a journal from last novemeber and took them again and found they were exactly the same. some people would consider that a failure, but i think it's success. i will still save up to go to green mountain, as i would still like to lose some weight.

what's up debbie downer or day 229

so, i read my post from yesterday and i have to say, wow, i was really in a down and foul mood. and that translated into a really dull blog. my apologies to val, my one and only reader.

i got the bathing suit yesterday and it was too small. this bummed me out a little, but i blamed it more on weird sizing than sudden and seemingly overnight weight gain on my part. i mean, it was really tight and it should've been perfect. today, as i was packing it up to send back, i glanced at the tag and saw that it was in fact 2 sizes smaller than what i had ordered. yay! not only i am not a size 30, but i get the new one sent to me immediately! meanwhile, i wait anxiously for a speedy UPS delivery and hope that my old bathing suit can hang on for 1 or 2 more classes.

i reviewed the list again and made some changes. goal #40 was to by a vespa trike or tuk tuk. nice as that sounds, i don't think i really care enough about either of these items to save the money for them. so, i changed that goal to getting handicap signs for permanent street parking by my apartment. much more reasonable and also necessary.

goal #53 was to talk to karin. this goal had already been demoted to the back burner and the more i think about it, the more i realize that it would be kinda pointless. i am sad in some ways that we've parted company, but in others, i'm sort of relieved. i think she probably feels the same way. you never want to think that a 20 year friendship will end, but sometimes it does. a thought that kept coming back to me last week was that just because you have a past with someone, doesn't mean you have a future. that sounds dismal, but it's realistic.

which brings me to #54, doing something real with fan of the banter. fan of the banter no longer exists. that's pretty much it for that. it has been relegated to "tried, failed, and am OK with that", although i'm still working on being OK with it.

i have accomplished a few things too. i exerbycled last week, woo hoo! i have really decided that wendy's is gross, except for the frosty. they are still delicious. i have kept to my 1 massage per season schedule and have winter lieft for this year.

sometimes you have to make the choice or day 228

completed: i bought a new mattress. it will be delivered on sunday. i can't wait. i also bought a new bathing suit which is sitting in front of my door at home even as i type. or at least, it is according to UPS tracking.

i don't have much else inspiring today. that's it.

things i would like; a pictoral or day 212

a new winshield.

a new bathing suit.

a new sofa (this is frivilous, but that's ok).

dedicated handicap parking on my street.

a new mattress.

the new mattress and parking should come with my next paycheck. bathing suit and possibly winshield after that. the sofa might be a tax return splurge.

fat farm or day 205

i was watching "the biggest loser" this week and although i kinda hate that it's a competition and that people get voted off, it did make me think about finding a weight loss spa, if you will. a place where i can be away from my life for a few weeks and re-learn how to eat and exercise. and that isn't like a boot camp. i don't need it to resemble high school gym class and i also need a place that understands that i'm willing to try stuff, but that there are some things i know i can't do. well, i did some looking and i think i found the place. i keep forgetting the name, but it's in vermont. it's expensive, but i figure if i try to save up to do it, i'll see how badly i really want it. i wish i could go this winter, but it will likely be next fall or winter at the earliest. plus, it's about a two and a half hour drive from the haskell library and opera house, so maybe i can take a drive up there and cross another item off my list. which will require me to have a passport, which is another item off the list!

that's all i've really got this time. my new boots are good. i'm still breaking them in, but they seem to be getting better with each wear.

see you next time.